Catch up

Wow, that seems to be all I have been doing here lately is playing catch up. It has been a eventful week if I say so myself. I can say that God played a few trusting issues on me that I think I handled very well. Last Sunday March 9, 2008 Sara's uncle JC passed away. Let me tell you there is a lot hostility (not sure it that is the right word or not)in that family. I realize that JC and his wife were being treated badly before they were brought down here. No it wasn't right, Yes something does need to be done about it, BUT there is a time and a place and before something can be done with the body we need to get this done before moving on. Some wanted him shown, some didn't, some wanted a memorial, some didn't. Wow I guess with 10 of the 13 kids living this would be interesting. But the thing I believe that everyone forgot including the funeral home. JUDY has guardianship NOT anyone else. Guardianship overrides a Power of Attorney in at least Indiana. They won't take it so this poor man that has went through abuse from his step-son that beat him and took all his money, is still not in peace in my opinion because he is still not buried, cremated or anything. He is in a cold, dark freezer at the funeral home.

There was a mutual friend of mine and Sara's that showed up at the funeral home he is sweet as can be but to put it nicely he is a male whore. Sara has had a more recent relationship with him then I have but he says all the right things, makes all the right moves it is almost like he knows what you are not getting at home so he wants to fill in the blanks. Sara has went through HELL and back with this man he was told not to call, not to come around, not to, not to, not to. You get the point LEAVE US ALONE he can't be faithful, truthful, or any of those words that you should have during a relationship. I know one extra relationship that he was having on his first wife that he told the first girlfriend that he had another girl friend in Kentucky. OMG what was he thinking. All of his kids (maybe with the exception of one)are just like him they have one or all of his traits, liar, moody, hurtful, bi-polar, fly off the handle and hit or throw things, shall I go on? Any who I hope that no one is hurt in this next rondafu (again spelling) he is trying to express. He went as far as to tell Sara that his ex girlfriend (ex my ass) was at his house all day on Thursday and he didn't say a word to her but she came up to talk and she just wouldn't leave. She weighs the same as feather pick her up and put her out, or call the police and tell them that some ding bat is in your house if you really don't want her there but other then that SHUT UP! I have told Sara that if she gets back in a relationship with him I WILL NOT be around, I know too much about his past to even sit back and watch this happen to her and I know it will he doesn't not know the meaning of his wedding vows. I can excuse one time ( I think) if the person is truthful but damn the whole married life come on. If you think you are going to change this you are so mistaken. Okay I have to move on I am getting pissed because I know the things he says and tells when he get caught he reminds me of a kid that when they get caught makes up lies after lies.

Now to me, I have been trying to take my medication every other day because of expenses, if John knew the financial state in this house he would flip and properly leave. I can't seem to win for losing. I can remember a time that all I prayed for was a baby something to hold and call my own. I still do at times but in times like this I am glad I don't because I have enough going on I don't know where to start. I went to the doctor this week and told her about my joints hurting badly if I stand up it is my lower back down my left leg, same if I am setting the worse time is getting up from bed OMG my feet hurt so bad I can't hardly stand on the darn things So I was put on yet another medication. I about died laughing when I read the side effects swelling of the ankles (okay didn't have an angle when I went in because of swelling), mood swings (right like I can't do that on my own I have bi-polar people can you not hear or read, it also causes depression again hello sever depression diagnosis, and last but not least anxiety OK now I know that you can't read or are just trying me hello again another diagnosis of severe anxiety. Mind you the depression and anxiety is totally different then the bi-polar so this is three different things. So since my blood work came back showing a few things they didn't' like they are treating me for my thyroid because I am gaining weight, and going to a have no idea on the spelling on this Rumatolgist to see if I have arthritis or fibromaglia (again no idea on spelling)

Still doing my EMT class found out I can volunteer on the fire department first aid portion for one year and then I can apply for my Primary Instructor license. I didn't' do to well on my last test because to be honest I never opened the book except in class, my grandmother was in the hospital, I helped Sara a little, the furnace went out at the house when it was freaking cold and we didn't' have the money to have a repairman come out so we had to look for the problem ourselves. So from Saturday night to Tuesday we had NO heat except a stinking kerosene heater and an electric one.

So this weekend is being dedicated to study and more study. Sucks but it has to be done.

I am praying I get my disability this time because the money would so come in handy and it would help me in making a decision on what I am going to do next for money.

Well better run and get something done or I will never get it done.